Suspecting, believing, even, that the world as you know it is not what you thought it was…not what it appears to be. And yet, there is some other state you also suspect exists, perhaps you even believe it exists…something called enlightenment or being awake. The tension between these two sets of beliefs—believing your reality is not real and believing there is another state that is more real, or ultimately real—that tension is what you call limbo.
That’s probably the understatement of the century, right? You were a vibrant, active, and intelligent person. Life was happening. Now your life feels like it’s suspended in molasses. Life is moving, time is passing…out there. But your life is contracting and keeps contracting…even after you think it surely can’t contract any further. What’s the endgame? Why are you in a world that you can’t even really participate in? Is something supposed to happen? Can you do something to hasten this suspended animation or are you going to keep contracting until you are catatonic?
This limbo is the tension between your innate drive to be vital—to create and to express—and the force that seems to have plucked you out of the stream of life and dumped you unceremoniously and without explanation on the bank. Perhaps you also suspect or believe that the remedy for this unpleasant quarantine is something called enlightenment or waking up.
Do you see the difference between these two? We’ll address them both at some point, but when I look at this I see two very different questions, though of course, they ultimately plug right into the core question, the beating heart, which can be simply, but inelegantly stated as WTF?!
LVX - Patrick Gaffiero