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Exploring the Dark Side of your Psyche

We have spoken previously about the Dark Night of the Soul. So what is Existential Crisis? How does it come about? Spirituality just like magick to comes at a price. The hardest thing about going through an existential crisis is that you feel constantly depressed and alienated. Nothing makes sense anymore and everything feels meaningless – including all of your old accomplishments, desires, attachments, relationships, and goals.

You desperately seek your real purpose in life. You want to know why the f*ck we’re all here in the first place, but you don’t know where to begin. If you can relate to these feelings, my heart goes out to you. I’ve been there before and it’s a dark place. Worst of all, it can sometimes last for years or come and go (like mine does). As someone who has been and occasionally goes through this, I’m not here to bullshit you, and neither am I promising to make it all become magically better. But I do hope, that through this, you will find a little bit of solace.

Put simply, an existential crisis is a period in life where a person is at a crossroads and is questioning their entire reality. They may wonder what the meaning of their life is and whether they have a higher purpose. They may wonder whether life itself has meaning or is just a random, chaotic product of chance. And as a result, they may suffer from tremendous anxiety, depression, isolation, and feelings of being lost.

Going through an existential crisis my entire worldview shattered, I went through confusion, emptiness, anxiety, and depression wondering what the purpose of all this was. It was an extremely difficult, traumatizing, and heart-breaking time. But my story is only one of the millions, and there are many reasons why you may be going through such a crisis.

Anything sudden can destabilize your mind. Think of it like an earthquake that sets off a domino effect within your psyche. Before you know it, you have cut off all your friends, quit your job, and completely withdrawn from society because it all becomes too much. Again, I want to emphasize the fact that this won’t last forever. It might feel like it and you might believe, in your present frame of mind, that you’re the only person out there who is going through this. But you’re not. Yes, you heard it right: the existential crisis is increasing in prevalence.

It’s becoming a global phenomenon. With a record number of people experiencing major depression and other symptoms associated with an existential crisis, the question here is WHY? With all our technology, wealth, and material abundance, why are we feeling more and more empty inside? There are many possible answers, but I believe that the leading cause is emotional, philosophical, and spiritual in nature.

We live in a world that worships the reductionistic mechanistic scientific view of life. Anything mysterious, magical, or remotely spiritual in nature are scorned and looked down upon. We pretend we’re all above such childish nonsense’ when in reality it’s what we need the most. We have lost that magick from within.

As a society, we deal with our existential emptiness in many ways, but the unifying sobering reality is that we are spiritually destitute. We’ve lost touch with our spiritual nature and are suffering horribly as a result. The current generation is simply wandering aimlessly in the dark.

I understand that some of you might be atheists or simply not interested in spiritual connections. Still, perhaps it’s time to reconsider your relationship with the mysterious at the very least. The existential crisis is an opportunity to find your life purpose, figure out what truly matters, and connect with your spiritual nature. The more you suffer existentially, the closer you are likely to draw to what is Divine.

You’re experiencing death and rebirth. You’re undergoing a mental, emotional, and spiritual renewal process. Everything in life works in cycles. Think of life like the four seasons. What you’re experiencing right now is the winter stage of existence. Soon after that, will come spring.

LVX - Patrick Gaffiero

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Dec 29, 2022

Thank you Patrick for this blog. I have Been at the cross roads many times and My journey has only made me stronger. Majik, my spiritualality, and my rituals have become clearer with deeper meaning and there is so much more to learn.

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